Away On A Holiday

I will be gone for a few weeks :)

Dont forget about me!

I will miss you so much, you have no idea

There will only be limited communications from the outside world

How will i cope?

I will be thinking of you

mwah x x

Anal Sex.. Go in or Keep Out?

If I asked you “Do you think all hookers have anal sex with their clients?” what would you say? If I had been asked that question 10yrs ago, I would have answered “Of course they do!”, but let me tell you, this is not the case. I do not provide anal services and I am a sex worker!

Why, you might ask? I havent yet conquered anal sex in my personal life. I have had anal sex once in my life! It was about 8yrs ago. Anal sex scares me LOL.

The Spring Clean

A few years ago, I had a massive spring clean of my life. Not only did I spring clean my house, threw out things I hadn’t used in over 12months, clothes that no longer fit, cleaned every nook and cranny of the house from floors to ceilings…I also spring cleaned my friends.

After my relationship with SM ended, I took a real long hard look at my life. I looked at the people around me and what they brought to my life. I sat there going thru my mobile phone contact list. Some friends I had known for over 10yrs, some I had known for 5.. Some I didn’t really even know, they were a “contact” from days when I liked to party. Over 400 names in the contact list. What did they bring to my life now? This new life I was creating for myself. Was their life going in a positive direction or where they stuck in the past, stuck in a rut? Was their part in my life bringing a negative impact?

Is being a sex worker as bad as being a drug dealer?

In some cultures in the 16th-17th century, prostitutes were the sole women allowed to sing in public or act in theatrical performances.

I had a conversation with a young man on MSN today. He had added me as a friend and as my MSN is under my work name, you would assume people would know I am a sex worker. Why else would they add me to their friends list? Do they think an escorts website is like a dating agency, take down my email address and try and score a girlfriend or a free shag??? No lol, I would have assumed, everyone knows who I am and what I do. This gent did not.

Random Things That Pop In My Head....

**Jealousy is a curse..and one that i have not been given! Of course i have moments of feeling it, but its always only a passing thought. I dont harp on it, dont let it eat away at me..
I do envy some people.. but not in an unhealthy way...i dont understand how some people allow their jealousy to overwhelm them... or sneak into their life..**

**I had cheesey fries for dinner tonight. Basically, shoe string fries, covered with pizza cheese, under the grill... yum! They werent as good as 'Lone star's" but they were pretty good. I feel fat already lmao.. mmmmmm my arteries love me hahaha**

Defining Relationships

How do you know when you're in a relationship?
Do you gauge it by the actions or by the title?
Why do we have to define it?
Does everything in life need a definition?
Can we just exist, going with the flow, taking what comes?

You know when you're in a relationship when someone starts introducing you as their 'girlfriend/boyfriend'..when every waking hour you either long to be with or make sure you are with, your significant other... when you just KNOW deep within yourself, no doubt, you are theirs and they are yours.

Blah blah 1

This blog entry has no point. No story to tell. I dont know what it is really..just a blah. Sometimes you need to blah. Just talk a bit of crap. Once you blah, its like that weight, that weird vibe, that discomfort goes away. Its like giving it to someone else and then its in their mind not yours. Well i dont know about y'all, but thats how it works for me. I release it out into the wild, never to be thought of again. I can smile. My mind will instantly wander over to a new idea/thought/moment and all is good in my fairy world again.

Some blahs are stories, entertaining to others. Some blahs are pain that once told, sympathy, kind words, human interaction can resolve and remove. You may not feel that you want/need sympathy or kind words, but sometimes we dont know what we truly need until it happens, until its there, until its done. There are many different blahs... this is one...