Last night i watched a movie from start to finish.. Id seen it before but only from halfway. Watching it in its entirety got my brain ticking. It made me ask myself many questions. I felt compelled to share them with my flat mate but restrained myself as i really dont think he is the right person to be discussing them with lol.
The movie was "Blindness" Made in 2008, starring Julianne Moore, Danny Glover & Mark Ruffalo.
**TOTAL SPOILER ALERT AHEAD**
If you havent seen it and dont want to know what happens, dont click "read more"
The movie is an adaptation of Nobel Prize-winning author Jose Saramago's compelling story of humanity in the grip of an epidemic of mysterious blindness.
It is a really good movie, i highly reccommend it.
This is not a movie review but a look at the issues and situations which occur.
For those that have seen the movie and those that havent but want to keep reading, let me refresh your memory and outline the basics of the movie.
A city is ravaged by an epidemic of instant "white blindness". Those first afflicted are quarantined by the authorities in an abandoned mental hospital where the newly created "society of the blind" quickly breaks down. Criminals and the physically powerful prey upon the weak, hoarding the meager food rations and committing horrific acts. There is however one eyewitness to the nightmare. A woman whose sight is unaffected by the plague follows her afflicted husband to quarantine. There, keeping her sight a secret, she guides seven strangers who have become, in essence, a family. She leads them out of quarantine and onto the ravaged streets of the city, which has seen all vestiges of civilization crumble. Written by Festival de Cannes' Editor
Here is also a trailer to give you a bit more idea ....
OK so now you know what im on about yeah?
So watching it, these questions come up.. what would i do? How would i react? Would i survive? Would i be a hero?
The worst scene in the whole movie, is when the women are traded for food. One group is controlling the food for 3 wards in this quarantine hospital/jail. First they ask everyone to surrender their jewellery and money in exchange for food. When there is no more goods to swap they tell the blind people, they want the women to enjoy, in exchange for food. Mind you, the people in control, are also blind.
This is when the questions begin.
If you were a man in this situation, would you coerce the women to go freely? Would you make them go forcefully? This is life and death, you havent eaten for days... Would your morals tell you that you should starve as opposed to allowing another human to be sexually abused just so you can get a meal?
The group decides to see if any women want to volunteer. One women says "I will go", the one person that can see, Julianne Moore, she says "I will go with her".. one by one all the women agree. they will sacrifice themselves so everyone can eat. two of the women have their husbands there. Their husbands find this decision hard to swallow, but they all know, it is survival.
Would i go of my own accord in this situation? YES. Giving my body to a stranger is nothing new to me. Has being a sex worker for 11yrs given me some kind super powers? NO, but it has given me the ability to take my mind somewhere else when it needs to. The need doesnt come along very often but when it does, instinct and survival switch on in force.
The women all go, silently they walk to this group of animals, where they are subjected to rape of all kinds. One lady is not pleasing the man. He calls her a starfish. Wtf is she supposed to do??moan and buck like a pornstar. Because of her lack of interest he beats her. So badly that.. she dies. The ladies carry her back to their ward. they say no words. they close her eyes and wash the blood and filth of her poor body.
Everybody eats that day.
That brought me then to the subject of rape. A man who is a rapist, gets off on the power trip. They get off on knowing that they are taking what is not theirs without consent, the more you cry and scream, the more they enjoy it. So say, in the god awful event that i am ever in a rape situation, im not going to cry and beg.. no, im going to fuck with their head and put on the best god dam porn star type show they have ever seen.
Will me "having a good time" put the rapist off his game?
What would you do if you were in a situation where there was 3 women. You and two other women you knew. In a life or death situation and one of you had to go with the abuser and have sex, to spare the other two. What would you do? Would you go? Would you insist on the 3 of you staying together? Would you wait for one of the other women to volunteer? Me, i would volunteer straight away. not because i wana be a hero, but because i think im better emotionally capable of handling that kind of situation than any other woman i know (outside of the adult industry). I have gone thru crazy bad situations and i have ALWAYS bounced back! I have this crazy way of being able to have bad experiences and not let them rub off on me, Sure they happened, i acknowledge that, but i dont linger on them, i dont think about them in a unhealthy way.. it happened, im still alive, life is good, ok :) !!
There were alot more things in this movie that made me question my own morals.. but as this is turning out to be an essay i better cut it off here...
But ask yourself.. what would you do? How far would you go to eat? Would you cut off am arm? Sell your soul? How would you survive? Would you ever be the same again....?
I hope and pray never to be in any kind of situation like these.. never.. and i pray no-one i know ever has to go thru that either...but if it does, i am prepared...
P.s If you think i am being flippant or not right in discussing matters such as these, please, go back thru my blog entries and you will see that i dont take things like this lightly and i have been thru some pretty shocking experiences.... im not an expert on this subject but lets just say, im not a stranger to it either..